Hi! As I promised to do my best to update this blog, here I am again. So before I gonna share some stories, let me share a bit of my self first to you.
I am Jann and basically I am just Jann who enjoys being alone with books, a cup of coffee, and taking photos with my cellphone and/or camera.
Of course I am not that loner. I do have buddies whom I can share my time for fun, food, interests, sentiments and more to mention. Did I told you that I LOVE to travel? Yep, I do.
I am also looking forward to find friends who are photography enthusiasts whom I can share the same passion. 🙂
Hmm, what else? I write not because I am bored or what but I want to share stories, ideas and interests with people, learn from others and explore my horizons.
Yes I love to write. However, because of my hectic work schedule, I can’t barely find time to visit this site. So today I am thankful that this day-off gave me the opportunity to write these things down.
What’s your story? I am looking forward for the next time and write more stories and/or share random, interesting finds. Thank you for your time and see you around! ❤
Out of boredom and probably doesn’t understand what to post anymore, I thought of making another blog where I can write about what I passionately love — TRAVEL! Please visit my newly made site. So far I have posted two entries and I am still digging some photos of my previous and arranging the recent travels. Would you mind checking my newly curated blog? 🙂 Suggestions and constructive criticisms are welcome for improvements. Looking forward to post more and I hope you will enjoy my “other”page. Von voyage! ❤
I am done with my internship and now I am looking forward as embark the journey in my senior college. I enjoyed and I’ve learned so much, of course. I’ve met several people who later became my friends and I’ve met this someone who later became special to me.
On my first day, I notice someone who sits in the right corner with his glasses on, busy writing something. At his young age, ( he’s just two years older than me actually,) they say he’s the _______. Unfortunately, I haven’t got the chance to befriend him. He is cute though, but his silence makes me feel intimidated. I don’t really why I can say that he’s special when it is just my first day…
He’s just there, on the right corner, with his glasses on, writing articles. There are times that I take a glace at him, wishfully thinking he will talk to me. But nothing happens. There are times that I wanna talk to him but he looks like he is not in the mood to talk to somebody. He’s just there on the right corner, with his glasses on, writing articles.
I stare at him while he’s busy in writing until I caught myself smiling alone. There are times that he caught me staring at him. Awkward shall I say, but nah, at least now I know he looks at me too. Sad, it’s all just stare and stare and no talking. He’s just there on the right corner, with his glasses on, writing articles.
On my second week, we, the interns, are assigned in different designations with the practitioners. No, I wasn’t assigned to be with him but be with his buddy. No big deal, it was okay. At least he joined the conversation as his buddy gave me a short briefing on what to do for the next days’ activity. But after, as usual. He’s just there on the right corner, with his glasses on, writing articles.
After I finished the report that his buddy tasked me to do, his buddy called me and asked to sit behind him for some queries. while his buddy showed me the editing, I realized that I was one seat apart from the editor which is ‘him’. lol! I got a little confusion on his buddy’s editing style and ask several questions. When I raise my questions to his buddy, I notice he attentively listens and tries to join the conversation (which I hope he will add more info about my queries and of course, he will talk to me) but he fails to join the convo as his buddy spontaneously do the talking so he’s just there on the right corner, with his glasses on, continued writing articles.
Our last week is here and the end is near. Still, no talking. Just glance and stares and vice versa. So I just do my thing to keep my cool and to stop my non-sense. Day by day, we’re getting closer and closer but no talking. Wooh, how was that? All my days I haven’t got the chance to talk to him. Not even a single ‘hi’ or a simple ‘good afternoon’ (because he comes in the office in afternoons). because he’s just there on the right corner, with his glasses on, just writing articles.
Until in my last day, friday, which happens to be his day-off, of course he wasn’t on the right corner, editing articles. I wasn’t even able to say my goodbye to him. But I thought it will not makes sense as I haven’t even say my hello to him in the first place. Because the whole time he’s just there on the right corner, with his glasses on, writing articles.
if that was a good or bad news.
This afternoon, thesis class, we are now asked to come up with our thesis titles (proposals). We were asked to make titles and 4 out of 10 were partially approved. Phew, jeez thank goodness but, it needs to be revised and narrowed. Now, one of my group mates were asked by our professor to be left. Me and my two other group mates were quite worried because… I don’t know, it’s just I am worried.
Minutes later, we were called by our group mate. (the one who was left for the “one-on-one” discussion.) He was running and shouting was like “guys, I have something to tell you!!” and we were like “OMG! WHAT DID SHE TOLD YOU?!”. I got more nervous when my group mate told us to do inhale-exhale shit and so we did and after I said “okay, so what’s that about?” …
“Hey guys, prof _________ told me that we should focus on _______ and ________ because we were the chosen group to compete for the ______,” he said. So I was like “OMG WOW @#$%^&*ASDFGHJKL!! Seriously!?” he said “Yeah but please make this a secret for the mean time” and I said “okay now I don’t know what to do”.
To be honest, I don’t really know what I feel; sort of mixed emotions. I feel extremely happy because that professor sees the potential in us to compete in a nationwide thesis defense that I fail to keep this a secret because of how happy and proud I am. But at the same time, I can feel the pressure because this is surely gonna be a hell of a research and sleepless nights and bombarded with theories and alike. Nevertheless, I am looking on the bright side and no matter what happens, I just hope that we can push this through and prove them that they never fail for choosing us and the hell of a research, sleepless nights and being bombarded with theories is worth the sacrifice.
to grab a copy of “The Fault in our Stars”, only to find out that it was now out-of-stock in leading bookstores. Zzzz!
When I choose to stop expressing myself, I forgot how to express anymore.
When I choose to stop myself for writing, I don’t know if I still write well.
When I choose to stop speaking, I don’t know if I still speak good.
When I choose to stay away from people, I don’t know if I still need a person in my life.
Before this year end, I’ve endured mostly hurtful things. Like discovering a two-faced friend, a friend that doesn’t bother to listen at you coz all they want is that only you should listen to them, a friend for just a company, a friend with benefit (who only remembers you when they need someone to make their class assignments, projects, etc.), ugh in short, I’ve got friendship issues.
This experience was a life changing for me.
I remember I told myself
“how if I am in a situation where I can say ‘it’s better to be alone?'”…
I realized that this year life taught me to live alone, I mean, to be independent; that I can stand all by my self without needing the people whom I think I’ll be dying without them in my life.
I just wanna say thank you to those people who took me for granted. You made me realize that I don’t need you anyway.
2014 is just 5 days away from me. This is another “new year, new me” sh*t. xoxo.